I’ve not blogged much all holiday. This is mostly because a lot of weird stuff happened, and I didn’t have the best time. OK, I had a pretty miserable time – even over my birthday. Things are ok now, I think, but a lot has changed and I’ve learnt a few things. Not going to go into detail on this – only about 2 people know what really happened. Rest assured, Terry and I are fine, just for a moment there I really thought it was all over. The best thing to sum it up – so close to how I felt it’s spooky – is “The Closest Thing to Crazy” by Katie Melua.
How can I think I’m standing strong,
Yet feel the air beneath my feet?
How can happiness feel so wrong?
How can misery feel so sweet?
How can you let me watch you sleep,
Then break my dreams the way you do?
How can I have got in so deep?
Why did I fall in love with you?
This is the closest thing to crazy I have ever been
Feeling twenty-two, acting seventeen,
This is the nearest thing to crazy I have ever known,
I was never crazy on my own.
And now I know that there’s a link between the two,
Being close to craziness and being close to you.
How can you make me fall apart
Then break my fall with loving lies?
It’s so easy to break a heart;
It’s so easy to close your eyes.
How can you treat me like a child
Yet like a child I yearn for you?
How can anyone feel so wild?
How can anyone feel so blue?
…and being close to you, and being close to you.
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Merry Meet Shaun,
What’s this, Shaun not his usual “Happy” self and on your birthday as well. This must have been, is serious for Mr Happy, to become Mr unhappy. I thought everything was fine, last I knew you were looking forward to your birthday and going home and being with your friends. Ok, so you have the nagging pain (no pun intended) and will in time have it sorted, but look on the bright side, you have friends who care for you, people who take you for who you are and don’t expect anything from you or label you.
Ok I suppose it could be said that I missed people’s birthdays by a few days, but you shouldn’t need to have worried, either of you as you should know by now, that you hadn’t done anything wrong, besides how could anyone forget about you pair. So if it makes you and Daniel both feel better:
I hereby publicly apologise to both Shaun and Daniel for not having their birthday presents on time.
If you ever want to talk, yell or scream, you know how to find me, as hard as that is sometimes. Remember a “Happy Shaun” isn’t a bad thing, it’s a good thing and a “Sad Shaun” means the world is ready to end.
I give you something to think about by Hafiz:
Even after all this time,
the sun never says to the earth,
“You owe me.”
Look what happens with a love like that.
It lights the whole sky.
Take care of yourself
Count M [[email protected]] • 04/19/04 06:46am