OK so he finally text me, after 3 days of calling him, calling his house, calling his friends. I felt like such a stalker and a loser, turns out he is mad with me about the hair. What a stupid thing to get mad about, I was going out of my mind thinking he was dead or that he was breaking up with me. Maybe he is breaking up with me I don’t know, all I have to base our whole relationship on is a few texts he just sent me while he was drunk, saying I have been “the biggest twat in the world”. About a stupid haircut.
In reply to the comment I got, I didn’t lie to him. It’s perfectly acceptable for me to not fancy him anymore, I can still love him. Besides I said that based on a couple of pictures he sent me, and was exaggerating a bit of course I still fancy him. But even his friends from work said “Terry you’re not Terry anymore”. It was just an observation, I’m not gonna suddenly go off him over a stupid haircut.
Like how would he feel if I had a haircut he didn’t like? Or if my face got mangled in a car accident? Or if I got fat? I’m sure he wouldn’t fancy me anymore, but would still love me. Those things aren’t one and the same, love is unconditional and pure, it can’t be affected by silly little things like that. And if he really cared he sure as hell wouldn’t put me through crap like this over something so dumb.
OK I’m done ranting. If he reads this he’s probably going to have another go at me for blogging about him. But I told him I do this as a form of communication: to communicate my feelings with other people. If I can’t talk to him cos he’s ignoring my calls then I’m gonna blog about him.
I’m sorry for the bad language I’ve used in this post, lol.
In other news, I’ve been revising in a kind of last-minute thing for my cc161 exam tomorrow. All I think about is: All I need is 40% and then I never need to do Robotics again. The other subjects I can try harder on, because they carry on next year (even if the marks don’t) but I have no interest in Robotics other than getting a mark high enough to guarantee no resits.
All the crap about Terry certainly hasn’t helped with my revision, and I’ve mostly been avoiding it. Also went to Tesco today, had to buy a new calculator for my exam tomorrow and also the usual food.
Apologies again for swearing a bit.
food: nothing but a few M&Ms. so sue me.
next events: exam tomorrow.